" A mighty flame followeth a tiny spark."

Dante Alighieri- (wrote that quote, sorry I am too lazy for a more clever title)

I don't want to blog. I don't entirely want to do anything. I want to sit here and be grumpy, mopey ,groggy and lazy, and stew in my post social anxiety mode.
I want a maid, and a chef , millions of dollars, and a new house- and I don't want to type anything out , or forget anything ,or edit it..

I just want it to spill from my fingers and be perfectly legible and allllll there.

I DO want to share some pics. I should explain some of them.
and I will want to have recorded the super cute events of the past few days
... wah.
Responsibilities i haz dem....
plus, my other responsibility of finishing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen sounds much less fun. darn.


Well, anyway some whines and wishes aside we shall backtrack.

Thursday, we borrowed Ri's nephew Jade and had him mow and clean up the yard some more while Ri sprayed for bugs.Rory rocked the house with me, she found a new fav song...a completely inappropriate Will.I.Am song "I got it from my moma"-oh my.
Ri needed WD-40 to change the stuck lawnmower blade, and we needed a few little things so we went shopping with Jade.Rory loved that.They finished the whole yard just in time for sunset - Ri found Jade some old clothes and pointed him toward the shower before letting him in his car soo dirty, then decided we should probably feed him ,too. lol- He couldn't believe how awesome Ri's real homemade pasta sauce was, and yet ANOTHER person who has never heard of S'ghetti pie?! Ri took him home after dinner, where I hear he made his mom jealous bragging about dinner.

I had stupidly scheduled a dentist appt for EARLYEARLY Friday morning. I had asked Lissy to take me, but last minute mom said she would instead. It worked out really nice- I had a torturous filling and Rory sleepily cuddled mom in the freezing waiting room.
We went to breakfast , stopped by a store where mom sprung to the LPS playset toy Rory has had her eyes on for a very longtime
then on to Lissy's house.Just in time for Cole to be waking up







RickJames REALLY loved playing on the floor with Rory's toy- which is about the cutest thing I have ever seen... though RickJames did NOT seem to appreciate having her picture taken while being cute.

We hung out for awhile while Lissy got up and ready- then we went thrift storing a bit- Plus, Lissy needed some basic household items.

Cole and his new dolly- "look someone elses hand to chew!! "( Lissy was getting him out of the stopped car, hense the undone strap).

We went back to moms for a little bit - I was groggy and starting to ache.
I think I may be mildy allergic to the numby stuff my dentist uses- the day after dental work I get feverish and groggy. grumpy too. Rory was also being tired and playing the "repeat repeat repeat " talkathon. We crashed when we came in the door - it was only around 3 pm-
I thought I would never wake. .. in fact, when Rory woke hours later I laid on the couch and napped after setting her up with her new toys ,some food and a movie.

I was out of it most the day before peeling myself off of the couch and cleaning.My new filling hurt(s) more than I feel like it should.

Wooo HOooooo Saturday 4th of July Indepandance day - celebrate !!! ...
Yeahhhhh.. I still woke up feeling groggy and grouchy. -with a new side of antisocial after being groggy and grumpy in public and around family members had put me in more of a foul mood.
So,we didn't really know what to do. Lots of people wanting us to go different places, the normal HUGE fireworks displays on rowded bridges - or big backyard BBQs... I didn't really want to do that, I didn't really want to be around anyone.
It was 1million degrees out and swimming sounded awesome
.
and Val said she was just gonna blow some shit up in her backyard,
That sounded lowkey enough, we packed some stuff and headed to her house.
Val's sis Jen and her fam was over.. we sat out chatting and watching the kids run around- Rory loved babying Jen's one yr old daughter .
Val gave the older boys some little Popper things to throw , Rory sided up with Seth against Jen's boys Brad and Damian and of coarse started throwng them at each other lol.
Good and hot we all jumped in the pool- WISH I would have got a pic of the guys throwing the older boys in the air. I couldn't beleive how hight they went!! Rory was a bit freaked out about swimming this time and refused to get in without her life jacket.



We chatted , watched the kids play and waited for sunset.
The boys played ball for awhile- Rory was being all divaish about sand getting in her shoes. - and ended up pretty much sitting out on the fence panel we were going to use for fireworks..
That's when the flirting started..
The older boys told Damein(3) to kiss Rory. He kissed her on the forehead- THREE TIMES :0!
He said he was going to leave his other girlfreind "the starwars video game " for her

Pretty serious if he broke up with Starwars.
Rory says he kissed her , so when they grow up they are going to get married! I'm not ready for that :0!!! LOL. I guess it's better than the crush she had on older boys.

It got dusk and the guys lit some smoke bombs and a few bottle rockets- Seth had a whole war game worked around the fireworks

I guess Rory got over her "i don't want dirt on me!" thing ,quick.





Rory found a comfy spot to watch

I love this pic of Seth!

Time for fireworks!



and sparklers


The sparklers looked better with my cam's firework setting than the fireworks










Rory shared her cheetos with Damien - Oh dear, it must be love
They are not allowed to look or act so big.
We finally ran out of fireworks- sometime between me almost losing my hearing and going blind, and before anyone was injured.So about perfect?
More sparklers though

I tried to get pics of Seth doing it but the door was in my way- I did get awesome pics of Brad spinning with them:

Damien(god, I really hope I am not butchering the spelling of the kids name) did touch the hot end of one after it stop sparking, - :( I don't think it burnt him badly, just was still a little hot.
Can't say there were no injuries though, it just wouldn't have been the 4th if I could have said it.
Ooo I got vid of Ri trying to blow up the batmobile..

Damien has the cutest quiet little voice and went through all the picture I took, telling me which fireworks scared him, which pictures he likes and who was who- while Rory and the bigger boys played in Seth's room- I was really expecting to find Rory in there crashed it was sooo obvious she was overtired.No, she stayed up- even after Jen and all her kids left. Rory and Seth played a board game-Seth tried to talk us into letting Rory stay the night, I might have considered if Ri didn't need to be away all day sunday- but Rory was far too tired and pretty rudely said "i had fun but not with Seth"I think she just wanted to go home to sleep... but I hope Seth isn't too sad that she may be outgrowing her crush on him, or have replaced him with a younger man :0.
When we got home Ri got a spooky sounding call from Harvey, asking him to come hang out but hinting that he really needed company.Ri wasn't going to go- but I pretty much made him. R was gone long enough for me to watch a tv show and eat, but yes, Rory was somehow still awake and GRUMPY. Lately, she will not under any condition go to bed until Ri is home.He sat down, she cuddled him and they passed out together in minutes..
I would aww more, if I wasn't so annoyed at how she can be THAT tired and not sleep.
...wait...What am I saying?? I think I stayed up another two hours after sending them to bed.


Today. I did BLISSFUL nothing. Mind numbing nothing most the day. Rory and I did play outside a bit, I did manage to bribe her into cleaning the floor and I did vacuum. ..but mostly I did nothing. and it felt reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaally nice.Ri called this afternoon and apologized for not leaving us the car seat so we could go out with someone seeing as it was Sunday, but I thanked him for not.. I really just wanted to veg out.play online- watch tv and laze with Rory.
Rory was being a gymnast today though, and spent the day going "Mommy, watch this" "Look at this!" ..and then spinning or standing on her head.
Ri was WAY late home from work, Rory probably would have went to bed early if not :( . Oh well, everyone is asleep again now, I really should be too, but I will probably stay up and wash those dishes.

PEACE AND TOFU CHICkEN GREASE,
BABYHELLFIRE

Lots of words that prove I suck at communicating ,OR...

....the blog post in which I only took pictures of the back of peoples heads?
the blog post where I bitch and moan about everything and nothing?
the blog post where I apologize for being a complete asshole this week?
the blog post where I contemplate suicide over the death of Micheal Jackson-HARDLY!(though there are people doing that) and post long remembrances of the celebs who have died?
the blog post about how I have searched for shoes that fit Rory in a dozen stores and haven't found any?
the blog post where I whine about my bladder/uti/yeast/kidney (perhaps all of the above)or whatever sort of weird infection that has made my lower body ache?
the blog post where I ramble on about how I hate to be "that sort of woman" and hate more, people that make me feel the need to become "that sort of woman"(don't worry you don't have to understand that one, no one else does-sigh- )?

No.
I don't entirely feel like posting anything beyond that opener tidbit of tmi... I guess I should though..

Not much been going on this week- Been hanging with Lissy.
Ri had some extra time off between bad weather and his 10yr High School reunion(which is was completely indecisive on going to- I did NOT want to go- , last minute decided he would just show up - a situation which he didn't explain to me and left me to call worried, to be told he was there, and later still there but on his way home, and MUCH later..still there,it's not funny or cute ....-double sigh-)

Well anyway. Thursday
Momo(Ri's gram) DID stop in for a minute and chatted, played with Rory brought us asparagus casserole , brownies and pie. She brought Rory some bath stuff and some stuffed bunnies (which she has not put down).Momo is a great lady :).



Ri and Jade finally DID manage to find the backyard under all that overgrowth and junk. I feel a lot better about that.
Friday (after Lissy came over and helped me consume some of that yummy pie from Momo and let me play with the baby-sorry no pics :( ) .. a NASTY storm came through and knocked out our power.Ri wasn't feeling too great anyway and left nalu's -called in to cowboys and came home. The power wasn't out tooo long thank goodness.
..but Friday night was when I started feeling like ass. I think I may have actually slept in the bathtub fr a little while as all my girly bits and lower body ached. I should probably make an appt, and I might if I continue to feel yucky- but for now its cranberries and water

...it's enough to put me in a very very foul mood enough that was not happy saturday-even though Ri bought pizza and let me nap all day, while he got up with Rory who has been a tiny bit less nocturnal
..and a bit overly bitchy by Saturday night when, I am glad he had fun,
but felt very forgotten, and somewhat like a domesticated house cat (see, its irrational and makes little sense)
- and irritated about the exchange I didn't want to have, my lack of ability to communicate it..and the fact that we have had this same conversation before and I still feel this way so it seems a waste of effort to have it again.

He knew I was irritated he had no idea why( and yes,yes that does make my irrational irritations worse.).I feel bad for him. I am a huge bitch- I know that.

Sunday he worked all day and I zombied around the house.,,spending loads of time in the tub trying to feel better.
Rory drove me insane with the "ask one hundred million questions about every little thing" game and then threw a huge overtired tantrum for hours ,and decided she couldn't possibly sleep till her dad got home. GRrrrrr. -angry

And despite going to bed LATE I woke up to Rory and Noobie staring down at me..
and Ri telling me to go out with Lissy.He begged her to get me out of the house thinking it would improve my mood.So ... Lissy came and got us.
We went shopping a little - watched how fast pocket change can disappear.Hung out at Lissy's for a little while Rory played with the cat - who is already somehow visibly preggy! (and Lissy is already telling Rory she can have a kitten).We went to kmart ,then stopped in and chatted with Aunt Marla about all the fam drama for a while before heading back to Lissy's-
Boo was supposed to go out fishing with his family but decided not to.
They coaxed me into a walk in the dark to the river



She had so much fun racing up those stairs- and Boo chased it it was cute. Shoulda thought to video it
Ri met up with us on the way back
and we caught the train .
OMG- How did I manage to not get fat fat baby pics?!?! I musta been too busy playing with him and talking to him.

I was starving had barely ate all day and talked Ri into stopping for burger king on the way home :)
Rory ate an ENTIRE chicken nugget big kids meal!whoa.

Yesterday, It was stormy and Ri's boss decided not to open.We hung out- decided to go to Val's
Ri ended up coming back for Rory's bathingsuit, it cleared up enough the kids were playing in the pool.Rory had a blast splashing with Brad and Seth.Val told us she likes the local chinese place.. we hadn't been thrilled with it since the last owners got bought out- but decided we would try it again. It was really yummy- mmm and Rory always eats soo good when we have chinese food for dinner. We grubbed on leftovers all day today too.

Rory woke up today wanting to go on a bike ride... but I could barely detach her from Alladin .
Once I finally got her and Noobie out the door the bug bites and the mugginess were too much for us.. we stopped in the nearby park where all the equipment was too hot to play on and just decided to head home

..well, after collecting a flower.

We were imensly lazy most the day. I am still a bit grumpy-..but the sunset looked cool tonight


and I finally feel a little better physically.
Ri has tomorrow off and we are trying to figure out what to do with ourselves.


OOOhhh - and we heard he people who were interested in renting the house might not be anymore :( . My hopes weren't too far up on the whole deal yet,but it does sere as a reminder to keep trying to get out of this shitty bfe town and horrible house... I mean, this wonderful house , in a quaint neighborhood that just isn't right for us anymore!,yeah.

Well , I am going to go google some such nonsense.maybe even shave my legs or clean up or something I should be doing instead of typing
PEACE AND TOFU CHICkEN GREASE,
BABYHELLFIRE